Sunday, April 3, 2011

Pet Peeves

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I have a few.

In a list from the most severe to the least...

Direct Name Calling. Why destroy a spirit? Sure I understand someone can be hurt, but name calling can be so crushing, I don't think it should be done unless its to an enemy that we are trying to destroy! Certainly, it exists and has its power. Just like plundering and looting exists and has its power (to bring fear to the hearts of the plunderer's opponent and to bring converts into their fold, I think) however, such things should only be applied an the enemy, not out of a temporary anger.

Saying "um" or "m'kay" before stating a simple fact. Implicit in there is a name calling. That the reader is so stupid that the writer is required to simply nod in utter hopelessness towards the woeful reader.

why make people feel bad?

On the other hand, the act of getting embarrassed does have its good side, I suppose. Many sages say that when one gets embarrassed, that means a spiritual door has been opened for that person. If they can keep from getting angry and focus on tapping into whatever blessing it is that is ready to manifest, it would be good for them.

Over exhausting the phrase, "just sayin"  If I had a shekel every time I had to read that phrase.

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I remember long ago I had this beginnners, pre-kabbalah teacher. I tend to learn slowly and deeply. It may take me a while to really fully get something, but once I get it, I really get it and can fly on to other levels.

Anyway, so this teacher taught me about the sefirot (chokhmah, bina daat, chessed, gevurah, tiferet, netzakh, hod, yesod, malkhut). I went over and over and over and I finally understood it. Usually when I understand something, I like to mentally play with it. So, I thought about it. Pictured it upside down, inside out, this way. that way, etc. Then it occurred to me that malkhut -the last of the sefirot- would probably have a really hard time getting its tikkun/repair- harder than the other sefirot.

So, I went and asked the teacher this. Of course, he poo poo'ed me and would not really entertain the thought. So, I made myself really small (for I am black) and asked if he could ask his teacher. I figured this idea had weight to it (...but comely) but didn't want to stress it or expose it.

He calls his teacher and poses the question. I thought it was interesting that he posed the question as if HE had thought of this idea, but okay. They then end up in a long discussion about this. that was exciting!

Afterwards, he came to me and simply told me that yes, malkhut does have a tougher time getting its tikkun. *Sigh* one small step for black Jewish woman kind. lol.

Many times, I am in such need of validation, but I understand that validation is not always forthcoming. I need to strengthen myself and boost my own confidence that I can and that have knowledge. May haShem guide me always.

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