When I Was a Whore...

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Not long after I converted to Judaism, I was happy to discover the library of Jewish books! Tons and tons of books I can just take out and read to my heart's content. At the time, I didn't bother with which book I was "ready" for and which book I wasn't ready for. I just wanted all the knowledge crammed into my head at once. lol.

The bigger the book the better. The more mystical even better!

Well one time I was reading such books. It was delving into the strength of the love that God had for the Jewish people and how it should be reciprocated. How the Cherubim would embrace each other when there was peace and accord between God and those who agreed to follow the Torah and how it would be back to back when there was discord. Somehow it brought in a string of biology and tied it in, it brought in physics and tied it in, history and tied it in. It was such amazing books that it brought me to a level! I think I was high from it. My whole body quivered (you know where I"m getting at?)

It made me wonder how can words make a person climax? Can words impregnant a person?

This made me think of all the many people who travel to India in the hopes of finding a guru, an ashram, a meditation that will get them to a transcendingly high place.

I felt like I was getting access to something I didn't understand and wasn't ready for. Indeed, it felt very good. But still I didn't know. I didn't have understanding. I felt like a mistress having a secret rendevous with a cohort and that it was not in holy matrimony.

Some time later a rabbi told me that I need to delve deeper into the Tannakh and learn halakhah. (The Tannakh is the Jewish version of the Old Testament; Halakhah is Jewish law.). The Tannakh?! Halakhah?! I thought I studied all that already for the sake of cnversion. Deeper? Okay. I complied.

As time passed, I understood.

The Bible, Tannakh, Halakhah -to me- is the food for the soul. It strengthens the body so that we can take on the transcendental unscathed and in holy matrimony. This is a book that practically everyone has access to. Its available in every bookstore. But I suspect no body really knows its worth. Each persona and their corresponding story is nourishment for a different part of the body, a rectification and a teaching for different sets of actions, Abraham -the right hand teaches about kindness, hospitality, Joseph the seksual organs, purity; Moses the right leg, dominance and perseverance; Issac, Jacob, Aaron, and King David. Together these "seven shepherds" guide us and strenthen us and prepare us for our transcendental union.

So hopefully there will be no baby daddies, no unholy matrimony, no out of wedlock "children" for me (and for you!). I'll see you, Mr. Transcendental, at the wedding canopy. lol.