Sunday, January 30, 2011

Coming Soon: Lemonhead book #2: The Crown of Wisdom

Be sure to get your copy of the first book, "All for You" at

The Wine of Joy

excerpt from Likutey Moharan lesson 41:

It is brought in Etz Chaim (A kabbalistic book) The knees-i,.e. the legs- are Netzach and Hod.  They are also the heels. And Eikev (heel) has the same numerical value as twice ELo(K)IM, which are judgements because the external forces have a hold there, as is known.

Now the method for chasing away the external forces from there is to draw the gevurot (severities) from the root of Binah into the knees.  For when one draws the root of the gevurot from Bina, the external forces then flee from there.  He can then take the rights of the first born and the blessings, which are the aspect of BiRKayim (knees).  And the root of the rights is called wine as is known this is the wine of joy.

(me talking here: What a wine of joy!! I could get 9 measures of drunkeness from that!! lol)

...Thus it is that by dancing-- when he drinks the wine of joy, which is the root of the gevurot in Binah, and they are drawn and revealed below within the legs, namely, he dances -- he thereby expels the external forces from there.  This is the excitement in dance, an aspect of "an offering by fire, apleasing fragrance to G-d" (numbers 28:8).

(Only a tzaddik, a holy person, can see the goodness in all of G-d's creation.).

Only Girl in the World

After all the hype and talk about the singer Rihanna (about her getting beat up by her boyfriend, and getting back together with him, and whatever else she's done), I finally decided to go over to youtube and see who she is.

Wow! What a video. The song called "Only Girl in the World" was really nice (to me, anyway). Not something I'd show my husband LOLOL!!! But definitely to my girls.  Let me just count all the stuff I liked about it...

(1) I liked her carefree ways. Throwing her arms so wide apart as if uninhibited.

(2) I liked the balloons in the sky. So not the typical ghetto scene.

(3) I liked the flowers all around her. Fun!

(4) I was tickled by that tree with dresses hanging on it. What a nice closet -nevermind chopping down the tree and making a closet, bypass all the woodwork and just hang the clothes right on it. Ha ha! That was cute.

(5) Appearance-wise she looked a little like Whitney Houston. I need to check if there's any relation there.

(6) I liked the lyrics --the parts that I could understand.
okay, I thought the red wig was strange.

it was altogether pretty interesting and fun to watch.


There is already media silence on this one.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Colorful Imaginings

There was once a Jew who sat down somewhere.  He made a little movement and knocked down a cup. The cup went crashing on the floor and shattered.  Some who saw this reported the news to others, but the others didn't care. However, when it was mentioned that it was a Jew that knocked down the cup, there was a great uproar.  whole countries launched protests,  people screamed in the streets. Others argued, "what's the big deal, he's just a Jew, just one percent of the population." Others argued back, "He threw the cup on purpose! He knew what he was doing!" they gnashed their teeth. There were riots of various countries, many were killed.

The poor fellow bent down and picked up all the pieces he could find.  He tried to put the cup together. Unfortunately, he couldn't figure where all the pieces go.  As time passed, he gave his two sons the job to fix this cup.  One held a candle the other worked on the cup. Which glue worked best, where do the pieces go, etc. It was now the job of these two boys.

Alas, they could not fix the cup.  And they each gave the job over to their sons, they each had two sons.  So the new four workers toiled at repairing the cup. Despite the chaos around the world, they tried to ignore it and focus on repairing the cup.  Time passed, and these four had children, who had children who had children.

Finally, it was a whole group, a whole community of people who held candles and who worked at repairing the cup. Myths were made about the glorious cup and what grand good it would bring to the world. Legends were created.

One person, seeing the great amount of people working on the cup rejoiced and said, "Isn't it grand how great we have become?!"

Everyone looked at him dryly.  This many people and still they couldn't fix the cup.  They weren't so proud: quantity made for embarrassment.

Finally, they had all but found the pieces of the cup.  They found a great glue that could keep the pieces together!! All the pieces that they had found formed the cylinder part of the cup and the handle.  They just needed to find the bowl part of the cup; the part that holds things.  Everyone got down searching for that piece.

One sweet child found a little black bowl look piece. "Could this be it?!!" He screamed excitedly.

An adult grabbed the piece and brought it to the table.  It seemed to fit. Perfectly. But there was a problem.  This piece  That was somewhat of a no no. After all the hype put into what a glorious cup this would be, the thought of a black piece seemed quite out of place.  The elders rejected the piece and ordered the people to keep search. Surely there was another piece that really belongs.

And they searched...and searched....

Quotable Quotes:

" The stone which the builders rejected is become the chief corner-stone."
(Psalms 118:22)


Long, long ago there used to be these Jewish sages who were so well versed in the issues blood that they could tell which blood renders someone unclean.  For instance, brownish or yellowish  discharged was deemed clean; whereas redish or blackish was unclean. The brown and the yellow is most likely from something else and not blood. But the Black was related to the red in that it was probably old dried up blood.

There as still rabbis today who can figure this out but I don't think to the same degree as back then.



Coins have two sides. Most things have two sides. Someone could read what I wrote right above and think of red as a bad thing.  Unclean, blood, etc. Red is also the color associated with the planet Mars. Mars brings up connotations of war (according to Roman mythology).  The god of war was quite revered and worshipped in Rome. Red, Mars is also associated with Satan.  And true enough, many Muslims referred to western Europe (and America?) -the progeny of Rome- as the "great Satan".  In addition, when Yaakov had to fight this mysterious angel/being who tackled him why they were fleeing from Laban, some say it was the guardian angel of Esau- which is Satan.

But its not limited to that.  The good side of red is that it IS the color of  life sustaining blood!  This blood, as some say, converts into milk for nursing mothers.

Many say that King David had red hair. But even though, like Esau -who was also reddish-- he had the urge to kill, he channeled to killing the enemies of his nation.

The color black also has many negative connotations.  But that is also not the end of the story...

Arab World Protests Extend to Yemen - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Arab World Protests Extend to Yemen - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Much unrest in the middle east these days.

Marmara Soldiers’ Testimonies, “They were eager to kill us”

Marmara Soldiers’ Testimonies, “They were eager to kill us”

Lynching is alive and well.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Mazal tov TO YOU!!

I'm brimming with good news today. Some I can't share yet. Some I can. I am working on book #2 of the Lemonheads series. But a while back the files went missing, the drawings the storyline, everything. It was a real bummer. Kicking myself for days wondering why I am so disorganized. But then thank G-d, just today, Mr. Blackfirewhitefire just decided to stop at a convenient store (makolet) --one that we rarely go to. And there they were. The disk, the pictures, everything. The makolet man just handed him this saying he had forgotten it there. So thank you, Hashem!!!

Also, a new Carlebach synagogue is opening up near me. For so long, I longed for a synagogue within reasonable distance that I could go to that the kids would learn all the traditional songs. Here is the chance.

There is more but slowly slowly they will be revealed.

There is a tradition, that when someone has good coming to them, they wish people around them a big "mazal tov" --a "good flow" that the influx of goodness should flow onto them as well. So, I'm wishing you all a big MAZAL TOV!!

With much gratitude to Hashem.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Picture of the Day

Jeff Seidel with Shyne:

If you ever need a place for Shabbat, Jeff's the man.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Quotable Quotes

"And the more we meditate on our forefathers and mothers, the more rooted in life we are."

(Nechama Sarah G. Nadborny I got it from Living Essence blog post)


Egyptian Police Fire Tear Gas in Unprecedented Street Protests - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Egyptian Police Fire Tear Gas in Unprecedented Street Protests - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Dragging My Feet


When I was a kid, I had an abusive and nasty perpetrator in my life which I had to run away from and recover from. Now, thank G-d, miles and miles away from America, from Mr. Perp, I continue my healing.

Its as if after the whole ordeal, I was left in a wheelchair. A spiritual wheel chair. In the physical world, I walked alright; no one would know I had any problems. But the signs were there in the world of emotions and spirituality. So as I wheeled myself around, faking like I was normal, deep down I was healing and healing and healing.

First I tried to stand.

The problem area is the right leg, the groin area, and the left leg. Spiritually speaking, the right leg represents dominance, long lasting(ness) and perserverance. It is personified by Moses who took the Hebrews out of Egypt and gave them the Torah. He tried to bring them into the land as well --knowing that his "shtick" is dominance, long lastingness and perserverance, he knew that if he could bring them into the land, it would be their's permanently! Alas, he was unable to bring them, but he did instill the yearning for the land, which to this day is still around.

So, my right-legged step is the creation of the Lemonhead series. A series of books, G-d willing, children's books with Jewish stories and Black characters. I pray to G-d that this should be a legacy.

The groin -well, I'll keep that to myself for now. LOL.

The left there's the problem. Right now I think I'm dragging it. Spiritually, of course. The left leg represents splendor, empathy, withholding for the sake of giving, etc. It is represented by Aaron, the high priest and brother of Moses. Aaron did not want the people to build a golden calf, but saw the unreast of the people and figured he'd stay quiet about it. This was his way of holding back. Also, whenever there was an argument in the camp, according to the sages, Aaron would go to each party and tell them that the "other side" said sorry. That way, each side thought that the other side caved in and they themselves would also apologize and peace was made.

I want to be like Aaron. I can hold a grudge! I need to learn to forgive much more easily. I need to understand that most times people don't do things purposefully to hurt me, but because they themselves may have a trait that needs work and this is how it manifests itself. Its not personal.

Also, in the splendor department, I push myself to revise and revise and revise the work that I do to make sure they are beautiful and full of splendor. But it doesn't come easy. Laziness wants to creep in. Right now, its in full force. Just the thought of doing a load of laundry makes me want to go to bed! lol.

During a chunk of my life, I have had to fight, be distrustful, use strength against things/people that seemed so much stronger than I. Its not easy to "put down one's weapon." Even harder to pick up another one. Even harder still to recognized that this needs to be happening. But thank goodness, my eyes are open. Now if I can just it...

Anyway, I am dragging that left leg along. Please G-d as I progress in the healing, I'll learn to "walk" better, then to run, then to fly!!!

May this post be a healing to all those in need of a complete recovery. Amen v'Amen!!

Jewishly Inclined...

the places marked in red have groups who are wanting to become Jewish, who are already Jewish, or who have an appreciation for Judaism.

Imagine the allys!! imagine the possibilities!! Note to black Jews who actually don't hate the Black side of themselves and their friends: We got a lot of work to do!!

Man Charged for Trying to Kill Terrorist who Stabbed his Wife - Inside Israel - Israel News - Israel National News

Man Charged for Trying to Kill Terrorist who Stabbed his Wife - Inside Israel - Israel News - Israel National News


Haitians Moun Mouin -M'ap Salue'-ou!

kembe forte.

Monday, January 24, 2011


Here is one of many pictures about the riot in Tunisia. Yeah, I know. It doesn't fit what the mainstream media wants you to hear. Well, here it is anyway.

Interesting pic!! A man stands down the riot police with a loaf of bread.

And here is an interesting article from the Christian Science Monitor. (Thanks, First Domino, for introducing me to this site).


It’s hard to overestimate the extent to which Tunisia’s uprising has captured the imagination of the Arab world.
They’ve been transfixed by the previously unthinkable images carried by Al Jazeera (and delighted by commentators describing other regional leaders as despots and worse on the channel’s free-wheeling talk shows):
Scenes of average Tunisians climbing on the roof of the Interior Ministry (a building whose iterations from Algiers to Cairo to Riyadh stirs fear and loathing in reform-minded citizens); thronging at the offices of the ruling party and tearing up its posters; sacking and looting the palaces of their leaders; the humiliation and rage of the young coalescing into street power that pushed out a tyrant.
One image really caught my attention today, on the Boston Globe’s excellent Big Picture photo blog (number 30 in the list, via the Arabist). A ragged Tunisian protestor facing down riot police with a loaf of bread wielded like an assault rifle. Economic hardship, defiance of the fear everyone lives with, the heady taste of freedom. It’s all there.
Protesters continue to push for all of the old regime's servants to be tossed out of the interim government today, unimpressed that the longtime servants of ousted President Zine El Abidine Ben Allie's formerly ruling Democratic Constitutional Rally (RCD) denounced their membership in the party yesterday.
Adding to the satisfaction – and the power – of events has been that no outside power, certainly not the distrusted US, had anything to do with this. This wasn’t US tanks pulling down Saddam Hussein’s statue or the US-backed Northern Alliance chasing the Taliban from Kabul.
Those events and their aftermath, particularly in Iraq, stirred dread and misgivings among Arab. As the bodies have piled up over 8 years of war in Iraq, they fed whispers that just maybe they were better off with the tyrants they know, the price of avoiding the dreaded fitnah – civil strife and unrest – that regime-backed Muslim preachers were always warning them against. Not this time.
A friend of mine in Cairo – middle class, apolitical, a Coptic Christian generally worried that freedom in Egypt might bring the Muslim Brotherhood to power – just quoted the deceased US labor leader civil rights activist Cesar Chavez on his Facebook page. “Once social change begins, it cannot be reversed. You cannot uneducate the person who has learned to read. You cannot humiliate the person who feels pride. You cannot oppress the people who are not afraid anymore. We have seen the future, and the future is ours."

Monday, January 17, 2011

Haiti, 'Baby Doc Duvalier: 'Baby Doc' Duvalier returns to tense Haiti -

Haiti, 'Baby Doc Duvalier: 'Baby Doc' Duvalier returns to tense Haiti -

Ah, the return of the "Tete panier" (bucket head).

This can't be good.

Just for Fun

I really like this video. The more I know about music and dance, the more I'm slightly wary of choreographed dancing -even though I still enjoy them- and prefer music and dance not taken out of context.

For example, I wished I would have been able to see flamenco in its birthed days in the back streets of Spain. According to what I've read of flamenco history, it was created by the lower class who were frustrated with their conditions and needed an outlet. I'm cutting the history short here.

But also when I see these choreographed flamenco dancing or choreographed African dancing in some studio, its like the power and the meaning is gone. It turns into a series of eye catching movements and that's it. Some would even do the flamenco dance with a big grin rather than the look of defiance; or some would do the various movements of various african dances all patched together into some new thing with no meaning.

Also, I feel its bad enough I am watching from a chair watching a video of the real dance. Watching a choreographed music video makes me feel like I'm an observer watching an observer coached by a dance instructor who herself is an observer who watched some one actually living their lives-- I feel like i'm in a fantasy land so far removed from real life! I'd sure like to be participating in my own -my own- dance, but I haven't figured out my moves yet. I'm betting its some sort of mixture between African/Haitian dancing and the Jewish dances.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Referendum Ends in Southern Sudan - Secession Predicted - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Referendum Ends in Southern Sudan - Secession Predicted - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

I think this is good news!

Prison fire amid Tunisian unrest kills dozens - Israel News, Ynetnews

Prison fire amid Tunisian unrest kills dozens - Israel News, Ynetnews

Prison fire amid Tunisian unrest kills dozens - Israel News, Ynetnews

Prison fire amid Tunisian unrest kills dozens - Israel News, Ynetnews

Random Stuff: My Strange Relationship with Birds

I have a very interesting history with birds. Going in a descending chronological order of events (and from the least bizzare to the very bizzare) here is a list of happenings:

I love hearing these two hummingbirds? at my window every morning.  They are these two tinsy little birds. I think they are hummingbirds.  And they make the cutest cash register sounds, "cha-ching! cha-ching!" I never heard such a thing before!

Once while walking in the rose garden in Jerusalem. There were a bunch of big black birds (crows?) meandering in the park. some walking, some flying.  I ignored them and continue in my own thoughtful meanderings when suddenly swooosh!!! one of those birds zoomed past me and whacked me upside my head! How rare is that?

Many, many years ago, after I had left my parents house and also finally got away from Mr. Perpetrator. I was going to my car. I got in. Sat down. And lo and behold, right on my windshield was a bird.  I looked at it; it was looking at me seemingly straight in my eye.  So, I turned on my windshield wiper to scare it away. Do you know that bird just stepped over the windshield wiper everytime it passed?! I didn't leave! I thought that was pretty amazing.

Many, many more years ago, while I was being bludgeoned by my local Mr. Perpetrator.  I remember how I used to tune my ears to hear the happy kids playing outside or the birds chirping in the trees. I used to wish so badly that I was one of those carefree birds perched on a tree, free and happy.

Well, one day, I wished it so hard the next thing I knew I was actually looking at branches and leaves.  I looked downwards and I saw my brother walking up the street coming home. I also saw the roof of my house.  For a moment I thought, "wait a second...this can't be!!!"

Suddenly, I was me again. Mr. Perp was droning on and on with his usual long line of insults he usually strings together just for me.  Then the doorbell rang.  My brother came home.

Now, I am not saying I turned into a bird! it was a very strange experience that happened when I was a child that stayed with me still waiting to be explained. Probably the power of the mind is what I would reduce it to...except not sure how seeing the brother happened and some seconds later he rang the door bell.

Reality Check: A bête noire and a hero

Reality Check: A bête noire and a hero

Lots of people taking initiatives these days.... lots of strong thrust of initial energy in the world. This Rabbi, who came under the Shas party (Rabbi Ovadia Yosef, et al) is going out on his own telling Chareidim that they should get jobs, etc. Everyone's in an uproar --even calling Rabbi Amshalem an Amalek!


Saturday, January 15, 2011

Link Links

There are some pretty fascinating connections made at Shirat Devorah's recent post. There are links concerning the connection with the Australian PM Kevin Kudd 's expelling an Israeli Ambassador from his country and the Queenland flood.

Afrospear makes an ode to the Black woman.


Thursday, January 13, 2011

Life in Israel: Netanyahu's Grandfather

Life in Israel: Netanyahu's Grandfather: "Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu went to meet the soldiers of the Nahal Haredi the other day. The meeting was very amamee, or informal and ..."

'Hundreds of Civilian Deaths in Next War,' Says IDF - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

'Hundreds of Civilian Deaths in Next War,' Says IDF - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Heavy today. Waaaay heavy...

I feel like Notorious BIG song....

my voice is not loud enough.  I got the wrong ears listening...this is a mish mash post. Don't try to understand. There's too much going on. I should be off this computer.

Every once in a whlie I just gotta feel the pain. Feel all the pain and not run. Feel as low as I can get and dance it away.  The song that does it well are ....not so kosher songs LOL.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

US Aid to Israel Not Worth the %u2019Real Cost,%u2019 Researcher Says - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

US Aid to Israel Not Worth the %u2019Real Cost,%u2019 Researcher Says - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Haiti Needs Help

.some topics are too difficult...

I mean, why?


Now is the time that the women NEED their men. Now is the time that the men should be extra up and about helping who they can mothers, sisters, children, etc.  Its like the whole Black society is a manless place full of preditors in replacement.

Now I remember how the media likes to play things. So, I'm taking it with a grain of salt.  And I"m sure somebody is going to come on and just insist -with no further proof than what I have- that the media knows what its doing and that I better shove their crap down my throat. But I pray its not as bad as the media (loves to) present it.

Flashback Post: Tzitzit and Hair

I thought this was an interesting parallel:

In the Jewish tradition, there are these fringes or bundles of strings that men wear on the four corners of their garment. These are called tzitzit. They consist of bundles of strings tied, knotted, and twisted in a pattern and then the rest sort of dangles down.

(I love when my husband wears his outside rather than tucking them inside. He also wears techeilus -the blue string)

In Hebrew, tzitzit is spelled: צִיצִת

Anyway, in Ezekiel 8,3 we find:

...and I was taken by a lock of my head...

The Hebrew version says: ...and I was taken by בְּצִיצִת of my head.."

Here, tzitzit is synonymous to hair. Thank you Likutey Moharan II for pointing that out.

I just thought it was interesting that tzitzit is used in reference to hair because its hair that we tend to put in knots, twists, etc. Now, I know that back in the time of the Songhai Empire around the 1400s, according to Ehav from Hochma and Mussar, there was a Jewish presence in Africa. (Also, I find it quite impossible that -as folks would have people believing- that there was no Jewish influence in the continent of Africa, especially subsahara Africa). Well, isn't it interesting that if these influence were removed, banned or whatever, that maybe, just maybe the people found a way to "maintain" by substituting the knots and twists onto the hair!

I can dream, can't I? lol

And here is a link from Ehav Ever about the Jews of Bilad al-Sudan

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Very interesting. African continent has the fastest growing economy?

Third Rail?? Fifth Column??

Third Rail:  The phrase third rail is a metaphore in politics to denote an idea or topic that is so "charged" and "untouchable" that any politician or public official who dares to broach the subject would invariably suffer politically.

Example: social security?

Fifth Column:  is a group of people who secretly undermine a larger group such as a nation from within, to help an external enemy.

Example: Blacks in Sudan who sell their own to slavery or kill their own for some cause.


WikiLeaks: US Ambassador Planned "Retaliation" Against France Over Ban on Monsanto's Genetically Engineered Corn

WikiLeaks: US Ambassador Planned "Retaliation" Against France Over Ban on Monsanto's Genetically Engineered Corn

 I've never watched the "Keiser Report" before, but this was very interesting.  The information was interesting, but also the way the lady on the show has to protect her stances on things while Keiser himself goes on and on with his very vocal thoughts.


The economic outlook seems kinda doom and gloom though...

(hat tip= Israel Truth Times Blog)


Tucson, AZ - Shooter On Jewish Congresswoman Lists Mein Kampf Among Favorite Books --

Tucson, AZ - Shooter On Jewish Congresswoman Lists Mein Kampf Among Favorite Books --


Quotable Quotes

"If a man speaks in a forest, and there is no woman to hear him, is he still wrong?"

(yes. lol).

How Stanford is worse than Madoff

How Stanford is worse than Madoff

I'm not sure I'm understanding how he's worse, but he's definitely getting the soft glove treatment!

Fish and Birds Dying Worldwide?

you can read all about that at Shirat Devorah's blog.

Just for Fun

What are the Feds up to these days...


Israel, The Good Enemy

Israel, The Good Enemy

Good read. I think most people already know this though. They just don't care.


Saturday, January 8, 2011

Soldier's parents: He died in vain - Israel News, Ynetnews

Soldier's parents: He died in vain - Israel News, Ynetnews

I read what the girlfriend said....wth? if he was still alive, I'd say they should break up already.

.R i. p Nadav.

Baruch Dayan HaEmet /Blessed be the True Judge.

Report: Jewish US Rep. Giffords shot in Arizona-Fox - Israel News, Ynetnews

Report: Jewish US Rep. Giffords shot in Arizona-Fox - Israel News, Ynetnews

First Jewish Congresswomen struggling in surgery after being shot in the head.

Galus. Exile.

There's a part of me that think....**sigh** did she have to break Shabbat for this?! Jews should be focusing on Israel and getting out of galus -if they believe in their own Torah and if they care for the world.

Another part of me thinks....So sad!! Who would have done such a thing? I have my suspicions, but will hold my thoughts for now.


Friday, January 7, 2011

Egypt: Why Muslim Terrorists Should Not Be Worried

Egypt: Why Muslim Terrorists Should Not Be Worried



Why are Jews who are Black and Hebrew Israelites always lumped together?

How come whenever there is an article about Black Jews, a Hebrew Israelite always got something to say?

Could there be financial, social or other reasons why Black Jews must distinguish themselves from Heb. Isrealites?


It must be really important to keep certain groups as "needy" group.  Then monies will have to be raised for whatever organization claims they are helping this needy bunch. After a while, this needy bunch will hopefully realize they are being used as bait.

Too much negativity going on w/me.  taking a 24 hr break. (unless breaking news sends me back here).

Thursday, January 6, 2011

School - more Musings

Well, as many of you readers know, I've stopped the homeschooling. It hurts, but the girls are in the school system now.

I miss so much:

Not having to have a big deal about the girls' hair. There was no one to compete. No white girls hair being tossed in their faces for them to compare with. It was just them and those we associated with.

Now, they have lots and lots of white girls surrounding them. They have books, notebooks, fun papers, etc all with pictures promoting white children, white look. I hope they fair out okay.

I miss so much not having to wake up to an alarm! I could hear the neighbor's kids screaming and the parents screaming and everyone scrambling to get ready for school, and work, etc. while I rolled over in bed and dosed off.  Not anymore.

Now, we are among the screamers rushing to get hairs combed, school clothes on, supplies, lunches, etc. And then its all over and.... my kids are gone.

I miss so much realizing that they needed an out and saying, "okay kids, let's all head for x place!" We'd go somewhere for a few days whenever we could.  It was important since so many English speaking AA and African Jews are scattered around Israel, in order to make sure my kids are exposed to "people who look like them/their mom" I had to travel. Not anymore.

School is everyday.

Anyway, I felt like the homeschooling was not appreciated. It wasn't.  I had zero support around close to me.  In fact, I even had to hid the fact that I homeschooled from certain people who just could not process this information mentally. There was always a constant pressure to stop --they just didn't have a convincing enough reason.

Well, the kids needed to learn Hebrew.  How else could they live in a society where the native language is Hebrew unless they learn Hebrew.  And they could only learn it by going to school.

Now there are two kids left at home.  I don't even have the strength to bother homechooling them. Why invest time and effort.  Its not that I was doing it to get a pat on the back or to be appreciated.  It was an investment on their self esteem. **sigh**.

I've got this big lump in my throat. Where is the frustration bin?  Its just that I worked so hard at something and..

Look in the bright side! They'll learn Hebrew, have heroes in their school, etc etc. just like society wanted.

epilogue: one of these days, all this pent up frustration may want to come out. What do I do then? This the second time in the space of three weeks that I'm musing about this.

What is Happening?


Chabad's new logo heralds changing times - Israel Jewish Scene, Ynetnews

Chabad's new logo heralds changing times - Israel Jewish Scene, Ynetnews

OpEd: Peretz-the-Leftist Defames Pollard as "Repellent Viper" - A7 Exclusive Features - Israel News - Israel National News

OpEd: Peretz-the-Leftist Defames Pollard as "Repellent Viper" - A7 Exclusive Features - Israel News - Israel National News

The Heavenly courts are at work..

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Picture of the Day


Just for Fun

Such a delightful movie!


Psalms 16

1 Michtam of David. Keep me, O God; for I have taken refuge in Thee.
2 I have said unto the LORD: 'Thou art my Lord; I have no good but in Thee';
3 As for the holy that are in the earth, they are the excellent in whom is all my delight.
4 Let the idols of them be multiplied that make suit unto another;
their drink-offerings of blood will I not offer, nor take their names upon my lips.
5 O LORD, the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup, Thou maintainest my lot.
6 The lines are fallen unto me in pleasant places; yea, I have a goodly heritage.
7 I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel; yea, in the night seasons my reins instruct me.
8 I have set the LORD always before me; surely He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth; my flesh also dwelleth in safety;
10 For Thou wilt not abandon my soul to the nether-world; neither wilt Thou suffer Thy godly one to see the pit.
11 Thou makest me to know the path of life;
in Thy presence is fulness of joy, in Thy right hand bliss for evermore.

This Psalm resonates with me...

Southern Iran Struck by 5.4-Magnitude Earthquake, 16 Injured - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Southern Iran Struck by 5.4-Magnitude Earthquake, 16 Injured - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

This is the place where Uranium is being purified.

Police See Finnish Links to al-Shabaab

Police See Finnish Links to al-Shabaab

I was just thinking about this topic. There are two groups that are the most hated globally for a long period of time: The Jews and Black Folks. Nowadays there is a real battle going on. Many Jihadi Muslims groups are fighting and committing acts of terror, bringing fear and despair in many countries. Europe all but fell flat on its face. Now, I hear/read about various groups applying their mind to find solutions out of dhimmitude. While part of me feels an urge to join and be a part of it all, deep deep down I can't help but to fear that this is just about two bullies battling it out.

Will Europe, or America for that matter, care two bits that Sudan is in turmoil? Somalia is taken over? Nigerian Christians are being slaughtered? Sure, it will make sensational news, but that is probably about as far as it goes. As far as some are concerned, the Muslim terrorist groups can have Africa. And Israel.

So, I feel more and more inclined to stay out of it all and just read the struggle for power between the two groups as a passing interest. In the end, whoever wins out, will turn their sites to Black countries and to Israel and try to oppress them, no doubt.

At the same time, Africa is hurting. She's bleeding. Israel is kept up at night fending for its security. Those groups are already in trouble. But what to do? What's the answer?

Just musing...

At times, because of the Jewish people's reputation, sometimes I imagine them as ChaBaD (chochma, Bina, Daat/ wisdom, understanding, knowledge). That is their big point. Their mission is about spreading knowledge (of G-d). Even those who are not so religious, usually take on very thinking type trades. And even those who do absolutely nothing, are "victims" of others who think they control the media, all the banks, basically everything. They are placed in the control center whether they like it or not!  So sometimes I think of them as brain matter, grey matter, perhaps even the pineal gland-- if the whole world of people were really just one Adam, one Man.

At times, because of Black folks reputation and history, I imagine them as Nehi (Netzach, Hod, Yesod/ Perseverence or Dominance, Splendor, Foundational). There are many evidence pointing to human life beginning in Africa. Some may want to to say that perhaps they served their purpose being giving birth to everyone and now should be relegated to history books, but I think perhaps that they are starters. Whenever a new cycle needs to start, a new foundation needs to be created, they start them or play a major role in that. In order to have a sound foundation (foundation being represented by Yoseph in the Biblical account) one's steps must be secure and stable. The two legs for taking those steps is the right leg (dominance) and the left (splendor). Like Nadav and Avihu, if the steps are not according to how they are supposed to be --i.e. if the love is too loose and not proper-- then it leads to a "foreign fire before G-d". Things go bad. The big test for Yoseph was Potiphar's wife trying to seduce him. Yoseph had to protect is brit/circumcision/holiness. Basically "that part" was at stake, and Yoseph had to keep it in the right place, towards his proper (e)mission.  Also, in Black history, particularly American history there are accounts of black men constantly being accused of raping a white woman, or accounts of castration before lynching, or the mandigo myth, and so on and so forth. In the Congo, well, we know what is happening to many of the women -its worse than rape. There is a lot of focus on destroying "that part".  That creational part.

Assuming the world is really one Man, then these two groups need to align themselves: create a stronger, straighter spine from the brain to the groin. A commonality. (note: not to say that one is mutually exclusive of the other.  There are Black Jews and there are Non-Jewish Black folks. Jew doesn't equal white. I have to say this because others may assume this.)

But there is one missing link -ChaGaT (chessed, gevurah, tiferet/ kindness, strength, beauty). That part is represented by the heart -the middle ground between the brain and the groin. The part that sends blood throughout the body; The part that can use its heat like a pistol and shoot out the bad from within; the part represented by women.

Nevertheless, the heart has no bone around it.  No defense. No protection. The "Brain" has its skull, the groin has the pelvic bone, the heart has nothing.

A Jew with a View

Has anyone read this guy's blog? He calls himself "A Jew with a View". I used to enjoy reading his blog but for some reason I can't find him online anymore. I don't even remember the name of his blog.

Anyway, anyone with any info please let me know...Thanks.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Vulture in Saudi Custody Suspected as Mossad Agent - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Vulture in Saudi Custody Suspected as Mossad Agent - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

First the sharks, then wikileaks, now the vultures as well. Is Israel defense given way too much credit?

Islamists: WikiLeaks are an Israeli Conspiracy - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

Islamists: WikiLeaks are an Israeli Conspiracy - Defense/Middle East - Israel News - Israel National News

I could laugh.

Tower of Babel%u2019s Ruins Waiting for Archaeologists - A7 Exclusive Features - Israel News - Israel National News

Tower of Babel%u2019s Ruins Waiting for Archaeologists - A7 Exclusive Features - Israel News - Israel National News

Stories of the Baal Shem Tov

Baal = master
shem =name
tov = good
(master of the good name)
cheder = school for little boys

When I was five years old I was orphaned from both my father and mother. The last words spoken to me by my holy father before his passing were: "Yisrolik, fear nothing but G-d alone."
Consonant with my father's words I was drawn to walk the fields and the great, deep forest near our village. From cheder I would make my way to the fields, where I would review by heart what I had learned in cheder. Often I would sleep over the night in the field or the forest.

My guardians, who looked after me and several other orphan boys and girls, did not tolerate this behavior of mine to wander in the fields and the forest, and dealt severely with me.
So passed two years. One morning, I heard in the forest the sound of a human voice. I followed the direction of the voice and came upon the figure of a Jew enveloped in tallit and tefillin, praying with a fervor such as I had never before witnessed.

I hid myself behind the trees and derived great pleasure listening to the man's praying. I was enthralled by the extraordinary sight, and thought to myself that this holy man must be one of the thirty-six hidden tzaddikim (righteous and saintly people) that are in the world. The tzaddik concluded his prayers, removed his tallit and tefillin, and began to read from the Book of Psalms in a melodious voice.

Following his recital of Psalms, the man spent some time in ecstatic Torah study. He then gathered his books and his tallit and tefillin and placed them in a sack, lifted the sack unto his shoulders, and set off on his way. At this point I stepped out from my hiding place and walked towards him.

When the man saw me he asked: "What is a small child doing all alone in the forest? Are you not afraid to be in the forest all by yourself?"

I answered him: "I like the field and the forest, because there are no people--the great majority of whom are arrogant and dishonest. I am not afraid of anything. I am an orphan without father or mother. My father, peace be to him, said to me before his passing: 'Yisrolik, fear nothing but G-d alone.' So I'm not afraid of anything."

The man asked me if I was Reb Eliezer's son. When I replied that my father was indeed called by that name, the man took a volume of Talmud--the tractate Pesachim--from his sack, and sat and studied with me for a while. I then joined him on his way, without knowing where we were going and what was the purpose of our journey.

In our wanderings, we would stop for different periods of time in various cities, towns, villages and hamlets--sometimes for a few days, sometimes for a week or longer. I never learned the man's name. I would study with him each day. He never accepted alms from anyone, yet he fed and clothed me and looked after my needs all the time. Thus passed three years.

One day we stopped in a small settlement and the man said to me: "Not far from here, in the forest, there lives a learned and G-d-fearing Jew. I will leave you with him for a while." He then took me to a small hut in the woods, handed me over to its resident, and was off.

I lived in Reb Meir's hut for four years, during which time he learned with me with great diligence all the time. Each day, we would go to the village for the daily prayers. None of the villagers were aware that Reb Meir was a sage and hidden tzaddik--they knew him as a simple workman, a charcoal smelter.

In Reb Meir's home I became familiar with the ways of the hidden tzaddikim and their leader, the great sage and tzaddik Rabbi Adam Baal Shem. At the conclusion of my years with Reb Meir I was accepted into the society of the hidden tzaddikim and again began journeying from town to town and from settlement to settlement on various missions which the society's leadership placed upon me.

Before having attained sixteen full years, I had gained a significant knowledge of the teaching of Kabbalah and would occasionally pray with the mystical meditations of the Lurianic Kabbalistic tradition, taught to me by the holy and awesome hidden tzaddik, Reb Chaim.

On my sixteenth birthday, Elul 18, 5474 (1714), I was in a small village. The local innkeeper was a simple Jew who could barely read the prayers and was completely ignorant of the meaning of their words; yet he was an extremely devout Jew, whose custom was to say regarding everything and on every occasion, "Blessed be He for ever and ever." His wife, the innkeeperess, would constantly avow: "Praised be His holy name."

That day, I went to meditate alone in the field in accordance with the practice, instituted by the early sages, to set aside time on one's birthday for private contemplation. I secluded myself, recited chapters of Psalms, and meditated upon the unifications of the divine names as prescribed in the teachings of Kabbalah.

Thus engrossed, I was completely unaware of my surroundings. Suddenly, I beheld Elijah the Prophet standing before me, a smile on his lips. In Reb Meir's home, and in the company of other hidden tzaddikim, I had, on occasion, merited a revelation of Elijah the Prophet, but never before on my own, so I wondered at the reason for this unexpected vision. I also could not understand the significance of the Prophet's smile.

Elijah said to me: "You are toiling mightily, investing great effort and concentration to meditate upon the unifications of the Holy Names implicit in the verses of the Psalms compiled by David the King of Israel. On the other hand, Aaron Shlomo the innkeeper and Zlateh Rivkah the innkeeperess are completely unaware of the unifications that emerge from the utterances, 'Blessed be He for ever and ever,' expressed by the innkeeper, and 'Praised be His holy name' uttered by the innkeeperess. Yet these words resonate through all the worlds, causing a greater stir than the unifications configured by the greatest tzaddikim."

Elijah the Prophet went on to explain to me the great pleasure that G-d derives from words of gratitude and praise uttered by men, women and children, especially by simple folk, and especially when this is done on a consistent basis, reflecting a pure faith, wholesome heart, and a state of perpetual attachment to G-d.

From that point on I embarked upon a new method of serving G-d: to bring about the speaking of words of praise to G-d . Wherever I went, I would talk to people, inquiring after their health, their children, their livelihood, and they would all reply with expressions of praise to the Almighty ("Thanks to G-d," "Blessed be His Name," and the like), each after his or her manner.

For many years I pursued this practice. At a conference of the fellowship of hidden tzaddikim it was resolved to adopt this method of divine service, which in turn became the beginning of an approach which stressed the importance of brotherly love toward every Jew, regardless of his or her degree of Torah knowledge or spiritual attainment.

(graciously translated and found at the Chabad website)